The Free Radical

(TOURS = Team Of United Renegade Sovereigns)

(Okay, you got me. That title is a play on words of an old album by The Moody Blues called A Question of Balance.)

It’s equinox time… and so the subject of balance naturally comes up. The thing about balance, though, is that it is always the goal– and the means– on the spiritual path. Seeking balance is never the wrong thing to do.

Even though right now the world appears to be way off kilter, totally unbalanced, what’s happening internally with individuals and what’s happening within the collective consciousness of humanity is that it’s all coming now into exquisite balance. The place where the teeter-totters of reality’s balance play themselves out is the internal realms of the human being. By seeking and bringing ourselves into balance– our thoughts, feelings, perspectives and deeds– the world around us naturally falls into balance as well. It is achieved through the individual recognition that choosing to experience at the extremes is really only good for creating drama. The neutral perspective, the balanced view, is the path of transcendence. Some have referred to this as a triangulation of consciousness– Christ consciousness– as the mind abandons its exclusively linear processing which is bound to choosing in an either/or fashion, and instead elevates beyond the realm of relativity and strict causality to find its proper place as an aspect of greater Being– as opposed to thinking and doing.

Allow me to further explain with a general example. Most people possessing an above average awareness have had the experience of regarding an incident in their own lives as initially being a very bad one, only to realize later that it was necessary, even essential, to a much more positive experience of the future. If we view the segment of time during which the experience transforms from something utterly distasteful into something desirous and essential as a whole, it’s easy to see that our experience is never inherently polarized (either good or bad), but that it is rather both. Our experience is actually always balanced; it is just our linear processing of our experience in linear time which sends the pendulum a-swinging. The trick– in these transformative times– is to refrain from identifying with the linear process, and trusting the inherent balance of every experience our souls provide for us. You can always ride the roller-coaster if you really want to, but please don’t blame anyone else if it makes you puke!

People are really starting to understand this stuff. The idea that the battlefield– the place of transformation– is within, and is nowhere to be found in the external world abstraction, has finally been truly taken to heart. Our progress has been greatly accelerated as a result!

Updated March 23, 2015

Q: What is the difference between enlightenment and ascension?

A: In a nutshell, enlightenment is a personal ‘experience’ of the individual, whereas ascension refers to the enlightenment of a critical mass of an entire planetary population at roughly the same time. So, in regards to the individual, enlightenment and ascension can be regarded as pretty much the same thing; but in terms of the affect of ascension on our overall humanity, there are very real, different and far-reaching consequences which do not really apply to the individual experience of enlightenment.

When a planetary ascension occurs, not only are masses of individuals fundamentally transformed, but the overall effect is one of the total transformation of reality itself. The ascended planetary population experiences a new reality whose qualities are decidedly different from the experience before ascension.

Q: You used to say “Bring truth to light,” but now you are saying that there’s no such thing as ‘the truth.’ Isn’t this a contradiction?

A: I’ll admit that I stumbled over this one momentarily myself. I saw the apparent contradiction… and then quickly saw through it. The intent behind the phrase “Bring truth to light” was one of wishing to uncover and expose deliberate deceptions. Perhaps I should rephrase it as “Bring all lies into the light of truth.”

There are many so-called facts which circulate through the consciousness of our humanity which were deliberately seeded as misleading falsehoods. Those with whom such facts originated used their intent to create lies for the purposes of manipulating humanity… and subsequently for manipulating reality itself. It is this body of falsehoods– all those untruths that can be historically traced back (at least in theory) to individuals claiming to dispense the truth when in fact they were knowingly promulgating lies– which need to come to light at this time. It is the deception which needs to be uncovered– publicly, as opposed to the weighing of one relative truth against another– which rests upon individual momentary choice. And this segues nicely into the next closely related question…

Q: If there’s no such thing as ‘truth,’ in what manner does falsehood exist?

A: This is a good metaphysical query. The relative plane of existence– where truth is individually defined and experienced– can be equally thought of as the plane of falsehood. There is nothing which can be held up within the relative plane which can serve as a universal truth acceptable to all within their own experience. This is just a fancy way of saying that everything is true and everything is equally false; it all just depends upon the perspective of each individual approaching such ‘facts.’ The relative self (ego) is the ultimate determiner.

Now, there’s something more I need to point out as the question has been posed. I never really said that there’s no such thing as truth; rather, I said that there’s no such thing as THE truth. What I mean to say by this is that certainly truth exists, but it cannot ever be reduced to a trite linear depiction, or simply, as a statement of fact. The whole truth– the Oneness of the UNIverse– is far too vast for that. (The preceding sentence is about as close as we can get to the Absolute Truth on the relative plane.) The truth of Oneness is One of Being. There, that’s about as absolute as I can get, but you’ll find that the statement may be viewed as being nearly bereft of any meaning or equally as being so pregnant with meaning that it needs to be accompanied by endless commentary. Again, it all comes down to what each individual brings to such a statement as to how each may view it.

The Truth can only be lived, but never spoken. Historically, perhaps it was the Taoists who understood this best. (See the Tao Te Ching, and read it about a hundred times in twelve different translations to really get what I mean.)

Q: In the Law of One series, service-to-self and service-to-others is just another dualistic reality filter, no?

A: Yes, I would agree. Although the Ra material (Law of One) contains much useful information, I have always had reservations overall about what is depicted there. The term of ‘harvest’ is used throughout as well– a term which most humans find rather distasteful, myself included.

The whole service-to-self versus service-to-others dichotomy frames the issue of self-love and other-directed love in a polarized light. Love cannot be reduced to a single polarity; love’s full expression includes and transcends all polarities. And like with anything, it’s a matter of striking a balance, not choosing one over the other. Personally, I have to admit that I don’t particularly strive to be a paragon of service-to-others. Instead, my behaviour ping-pongs between actively expressing love for myself and actively expressing love to others. In order to effectively serve others, I first have to take care of myself; otherwise my efforts will be ineffectual. So whenever we are led to choose one polarity over another– no matter how right it seems– evolution can be best served by seeking balance instead.

The external light creation– the world of our outer-directed experience– is dualistic in nature. Light, as a wave, is dualistic in nature– alternating between positive and negative expression. The light creation, and especially the astral realms, require the ‘friction’ of dualistic perception in order to produce harvestable energy. The light creation– in its very purpose– is cut off from Source; it is an experiment in separation. It can only recycle light energy, or alternatively, harvest emotional energy from Source-connected individuals (i.e. Earth humans).

(And now a couple of more very recent questions…)

Q: Are you absolutely sure that you can’t find anything wrong with Matt Kahn’s teachings?

A: Okay, you got me. Originally, I had regarded Matt as simply another enlightened teacher along the lines of say, Osho. His teachings are meant to be insights that are helpful in bringing individuals to enlightenment; that is the only agenda. I had based my original opinion of Matt upon a handful of his most recent videos. After receiving the above question however, I went back into the older videos to see what might be lurking there.

Specifically, I watched all of the videos in the series called The Pleiadian Prophecy. And yes, this sounds very much like an astral agenda. Matt describes the Earth reality as holographic, an Angel Academy set up by and for our Pleiadian ancestors. Although he doesn’t outright say it, the implication is clear: our first allegiance is to the Pleiades, and Earth comes second.

So there you have it. With this I disagree. Although I have myself identified with the Pleiadian mythos in the past, I have always been steadfast in my primary allegiance to this planetary body, the Earth Mother. Everything I am in physicality, everything I can own or possess, everything that I can do here, everything which I outwardly perceive, everything that I can think about– it is all given to me by Mother Earth. She MUST be my primary ally; all other off-world landlords and agendas I must regard as secondary.

I still believe that Matt Kahn is sincere in his desire to bring individuals to personal enlightenment, and I believe that his teachings are valuable in this regard, but when it comes to the ascension narrative he is providing, I certainly have my reservations.

Everyone in this movement who is outspoken is selling a particular narrative, myself included. We don’t have to buy into any one story at this point. We are still best off drawing from multiple perspectives, and need not eliminate possibilities prematurely. My advice, as always, is still to cultivate the most intimate relationship possible with the organic planet– through a full body awareness (not through the mind alone)– in order to return this realm to a state of balance. Once relative balance is achieved, we can more clearly see where it would be prudent for humanity to move next within our collective experience.

We will redefine our relationship to the astral realms and the light creation as a whole, but until we are in a position to do so, we should allow as many possibilities into the field of our experience as we can. I still regard Matt Kahn as a valuable and insightful teacher.

Q: Lately, you’ve been rather forthcoming with the sources you draw upon. Can you specifically reveal the sources which have formed the basis for your current perspective.

A: Okay, it may be useful to do so.

Twenty years ago, my main influences were the Seth books as channelled by Jane Roberts during the seventies and into the eighties, as well as all of the books penned by Carlos Castaneda. That’s about twenty books or so which formed the basis of my ‘advanced’ understanding of the collective consciousness, the individual, and how reality expresses itself. This was all layered on top of my personal forays into Vedanta, Buddhism, and Taoism– the religions that resonated most strongly for me at that time. It was a matter of seeing a thread of commonality which ran through all of the above perspectives.

The teachings from the Pleiades as channelled by Barbara Marciniak were also highly influential, and I should point out that these particular Pleiadian teachings were always very Earth-centric. It was the P’s who first introduced me to the concept of shadow governments and dark agendas playing out here on Earth. But they also were sure to oft repeat the phrase “As above, so below.” Shadow governments and dark agendas appear to be more universal in nature than many astral entities are willing to admit (or perhaps it’s just beyond their actual knowledge). There are many many entities experiencing this universe in relative unawareness.

Upon my twenty-year-old foundation, my perspective is obviously ever-evolving still. My primary source of fresh information currently, and for about the last two years, is Andrew Bartzis, the Galactic Historian. I have yet to encounter any disagreement with him. But I do need to point out that newcomers to Andrew’s information may very well find much of it to be overwhelming. If you decide to check out some of his incredibly voluminous material, try to refrain from making any snap judgments. Put together as many pieces of the puzzle as you can and then see if it doesn’t begin to make a whole lot more sense.

Right now I am also eager to learn from the work Michelle Walling is currently engaged in which comes primarily from Lily Earthling and Goz. These are the two individuals promoting the narrative of the organic Earth-created timeline which supplants and ultimately collapses the extraneous astral timelines. This information is resonating with a large segment of the lightworker community, myself included.

I strongly suspect that most or all TOURS members are truly earthlings.