{"id":3453,"date":"2015-02-06T16:36:21","date_gmt":"2015-02-06T16:36:21","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/blog.nielskunze.com\/?p=3453"},"modified":"2015-02-06T16:48:16","modified_gmt":"2015-02-06T16:48:16","slug":"what-did-i-do-to-deserve-this-an-open-letter-to-the-universe","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/blog.nielskunze.com\/?p=3453","title":{"rendered":"What Did I Do to Deserve This? An Open Letter to the Universe"},"content":{"rendered":"

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http:\/\/blog.nielskunze.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/02\/I-Remember-I-Believe-Banff-98.mp3<\/a><\/audio> (I Remember I Believe by my band Missing Peace, a live front-end mix cassette recording at The Rose and Crown in Banff in 1998. This was my ‘coming out’ song, and the very first one we ever recorded. It was always a staple in live sets.)<\/p>\n

Dear Universe,<\/p>\n

I have heard that \u201clife is hard,\u201d that \u201cno one ever said that life was fair,\u201d and that \u201cto live is to suffer.\u201d I suppose it\u2019s true that I have suffered, but I\u2019ve been so unable to focus on the suffering that I can\u2019t honestly attribute much significance to it other than as a facilitator of all that is now wonderful in my life. Please don\u2019t get me wrong; I don\u2019t particularly like suffering any more than the next guy, but I understand, I accept, I embrace<\/em> its necessity in bringing about all that comes after… as I allow.<\/p>\n

As a retrospective creature, I have looked back upon my life many, many times, to all the immature dreams of my youth. Being also an imaginative sort, I can easily envision the alternate courses my life might\u2019ve taken had my wishes been met as a young man. What a dreadfully wasteful life that would have been! If that part of me which aspires toward a life of comfort and ease had been given ample reward through wishes granted while a woefully undeveloped character still stood at the helm of my being, what a ruin this life might\u2019ve been.<\/p>\n

Dreams and aspirations require honing, just as surely does one\u2019s character. My many, many mistakes are the whetstone upon which I have sharpened the edge of my special madness which has inexplicably come to love and to cherish this life. Just a few years ago I would have been utterly incapable of writing– let alone even conceiving– a little thank you note such as this. But truly, thank you.<\/p>\n

Thank you universe, soul, spirit… for knowing me far better than I ever have, and for consistently honouring the totality of my being above the pettiness of ill-conceived wishes. These are tremendously exciting times, and their challenges only look insurmountable to those who remain lost in their own suffering. I thank you equally for the experiences which brought my suffering as I do for the experience of growing beyond them. Thank you for trusting me!<\/p>\n

I look forward to a grander partnership.<\/p>\n

Love,
\nNiels.<\/p>\n

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